February 7th, 2012
recently, my life feels a little like a scene out of the Notebook where Ally madly double kicks the side of Noahs car door and screams at him to leave – without meaning a single word of it and never expecting him to actually go. i wont burden you with details as for most, i think the concept is within grasp.
needless to say, a few days ago i discovered the beauty in a get away.
i pulled out my little overnight bag from under my bed and filled it with enough to last me a day or two. jumped in my car, and drove south with Angels & Airwaves loudly blaring out the windows. the drive itself made me feel better. theres something about being able to scream lyrics at the top of your lungs that makes problems feel less heavy upon your shoulders. sure, the people driving in the car next to you may look at you strangely – but lets be honest, when are you ever going to cross paths with them again? all those moments ive ever wanted to scream my heartache to the world, this was their vindication.
i arrived on the doorstep of a cousin i dont nearly see enough, and was welcomed with the kind of hug that says you’re home. spending three days with her was everything i needed, and just that little bit more. being in a new city, meeting new people, and simply endulging in all the things that didnt feel familiar or expected was liberating. somehow everything clouding my vision and enveloping my heart seemed to vanish. the breeze felt fresh and the sun felt warm…i found my feet.
im home now, snuggled up in my own bed thinking about how we can get so wrapped up in the troubles of life that we sometimes forget how to breathe. now, dont get me wrong – i dont believe that running away from your problems was ever going to help solve them. however, i do believe sometimes viewing life from another perspective so distant from your own, really can do the world of difference. you need to keep breathing, its how we move forward to the greater things awaiting in our lives. so when the air around you feels polluted – find a clearing, where ever that may be, and take a deep breath in. you’re going to be ok.
one more thing.
‘I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together…’
– Marilyn Monroe
she was more than curls and smiles…now let the better fall together.